Oddly, I don't find writing het all that revealing, and I've taken stuff from my life wholesale and worked it into fic. The spouse once said to me, "Can I be Daniel next time? Just once I want to be the cute one in glasses." No, we weren't role playing. He'd just seen part of a Jack/Daniel story I was writing. In the story Jack discovers that it's really easy to make Daniel laugh after sex, that he laughs at jokes he'd never laugh at otherwise. I'm like that. When we were first together the spouse would save up bad jokes to tell me after sex because he knew I'd laugh no matter how bad the joke was.

And I always draw on my own emotional landscape when I write. I don't have access to anyone else's.

But femslash hits closer to my own desires I think, or hits a rawer, more vulnerable part of myself. Plus, sometimes I miss sex with women so much I don't have words for it. That's probably part of it, too.

And once again, I've sliced myself open in a public forum.